Friday, June 27, 2014

  Just be different, just be you...
   Lots of love 
   J.K.
The speech of self-esteem
I'm coming home mother,- that's what I said on the phone. I was angry, mad and began to argue with my friends. Some people are capable of anything!- I thought.They can't even  say the right things in the right place. And the most special thing is that they are still ready to show off. The boss congratulates them on their success, the teachers congratulate these students on their "hard work", the trainers are proud to have such amazing individuals among them. But is this fair? Why these useless people are considered the same as the successful ones. Is there any explanation for this? What is wrong?  So many questions and not a single reasonable answer.
We think, we feel, think, write, paint, execute, work etc etc. And it seems like this phenomen is present everywhere. Always there to bring you down.
I experienced this situation and I felt like I couldn't do nothing about it.
I went home, I stand in front of my mum and made a long long speech:
Why this happends? Why is this world so unfair ? Is there something wrong with me?
Doesn't matter. This will make me strong. Although a lot of people don't deserve anything they still get what they want. What about us? What about the hard working people?
We have to study, to work and above all to sacrifice in way to achieve our goals.  Whereas these others don't have to do nothing, but beeing lazy. Yes unfortunately this is the sad reality. But don't worry mother. You know that nothing can stop me. There will always be situations like this. I know, I know. Trust me these moments will make me stronger. I feel it and I'm a 100% sure. Yes nobody can bring me down, after all if you don't face this kind of anger you will not fight harder.
And at the end my mother's reaction was: Wow, you go girl. Keep it up, like you always do. Be an invictus woman now and forever. Nelson Mandela is your role model, so try to follow his steps my dearest. Do never give up, because you were born and YOU will be someone important one day. One day in a near future.
Yes these sentences gave me force. I needed it, I needed this encouragement. You girls, you boys, you women, you men do never quit. Try to cheer yourself up with the relatives you care most of, because they will never let you down.
Thanks for reading
And good luck :)
Lots of love
J.K.

Thursday, June 26, 2014

           Smile, that's the answer...
 Are we enjoying ourselves? Are we happy enough?
It's  12 o clock in my country and I feel  already lost. Moody people everywhere in this cloudy day. But I want you people to know   that if you want something nothing can stop you(even this bad weather which affects people). Maybe I dream too much, maybe I  want too much but it's absolutely true that I want negativity far away from me and from my city. It's just a random day but I think that I never felt so strong. Yeah just like the song says I feel like there's nothing I can't try.
It started bad but now I feel the real me. Always ready for a good change. Everyday I try to do that because  I usually overthink and that's not a good thing. Trying to solve a hundred problems at the same time. It's crazy, you can't handle them. Instead of feeling bad I smile. I know that even in the hardest moments there  will be always a reason you can smile for.
If there was a doctor whose best advice would be Smile he would be my favorite one.
I think that we blame ourselves for everything, and we shouldn't do this at all. Otherwise we will feel useless, just like some  dirty empty sheets. Empty because you feel like you are not able to do nothing and dirty because you can't get rid of this anger, there's nothing you can do about it.
Stop for a minute, starre at you feet, realize you are living. You somewhere in this big planet. You, a special person. You the reason of somebody's smile. And at the very end of this moment SMILE. That's the key you need, tha's the answer you were looking for.

Good luck and have a good day
Lots of love
J.K.


Wednesday, June 11, 2014

Surviving in one of those No days! 
Being sad, feeling down morally, thinking that the whole world is against you and everything that you do is wrong. Facing thousand of problems at the same time. Feeling like your head is going to explode. And yes thinking that you may be cursed. Nobody understands, even your parents and your other family members. Yes I overthink sometimes and I say Why? Why it happends all the time? Why I continue to suffer so damn much? Is this fair? Everybody wants to know the answer, but can't you people understand? I can't answer them. It's all there insise of my mind. And excatly this moment people think that you are crazy, some others consider you as a monster, as a selfish person and for what? For the reason that you can't give them a smile and the right answer every time they want it. For feeling sad, and desperate with yourself.
It's hard trust me, I know 'cause I've been there.
Some people want to help you with idiot sentences such as : Don't be sad. We can do it together. What, what can we do together if you don't stand there when I need you?
These "good" people claim that they helped you in your hardest moments but instead of that they did nothing but hurted you. Yes because it's easier from where they are standing. From the distance everybody wants to help you, but the very first moment when they stand next to you they vanish. The fly away far far away from you.Yes this is sad but true. Unfortunately it is the sad reality.And at the end you lose your mind, you can't control yourself and you have the right to do so. We are humans after all, right? You may think like me but try to tell that to my mum, or dad. All you get would be an answer like: Hey hold your mouth! Whom you think you are speaking with!
And after hearing that sentence, you can't do nothing, otherwise you may get punished. The only thing left for you is crying. Yes this way you can get rid of the anger and disappointment you have inside of you. Or you can even listen to songs who give you force and cheer you up.
But that doesn't mean you have to give up. Never do that. Try to boost your self-esteem and never quit ! Think pozitive and stay away from the negative thoughts. That's the best advice I can give to all of you, because it always worked for me. This way you can survive in these kind of bad days. Don't forget that after a hurricane always comes the rainbow. :)

Good luck and just be you
Lots of love
J.K.