Tuesday, June 30, 2015

Stressed about your future? Don't worry, me too.

Just got graduated and you already haven't chosen your university? Still confused about what you wanna do with your life? Relax, you are not the only one getting through this. Trust me I am in this labyrinth too. My head is a mess, and I am really worried about  my life at this point.
Many of you haven't decide what to study, or want to study more than two or three subjects at the same time. You haven't made your mind yet, but chill no need to panic for that.
When you choose your university in a certain way you choose how to build the path of your success. Lots of schools offer students what they want but it's up to students to choose which is the best for them. Don't be frustrated by others. Listen your inner voice, and pick the one which fulfills all your requirements.
Each of us knows his strong and his weak points and this is what their importance consists on.
First, by focusing on them you develop unique skills. Soon you realize that you are able face everything on your own. You are grown enough and nothing seems impossible. It needs time and will. That's all, trust me you don't need a magic stick.
Second, it gives you the clue to find the missing piece of your puzzle. Once you find it you never lose it again.
And there you have the completed puzzle, looking perfect just like you wished it.
That's what I did and continue to do during this time. I concentrate I don't get disturbed. Of course there will be unpleasant surprises during your way, but you will always find the way out if your goal is to discover the real you.
All in all the university is just a contemporary home the manager of which is you and only you.

Hope I helped anyone out there.
Remember to live the moment and take life as it comes.
Sincerely
J.K

Sunday, June 28, 2015

My endless fear

In life we try to learn new things, to give them a real understandable meaning. The whole process may seem complicated but it is a kind of ritual which we are all part of. You see, you analyse, you think, and ... then you act. I really like this word ACTING. Pretend to be someone or to feel something which is not part of yours. But after all it's the key to solving the problem. All we have to do is to remain ourselves. This is kind of a paradox but the question is what do we really have to do?

At the beginning of this academic year I was really optimistic. I became an auntie which was an incredible feeling, I was one of the top students in my school and I finally met my father for the first time after two years. It couldn't have been better, that's what I thought. I aimed high and suddenly everything became crystal clear. My focus on my future turned out to be much more difficult than I expected. In fact it was pretty scary and that was the moment when I began to realize how endless my fear was. I hated it since I first felt it. I detested it with my whole soul. It was there to knock me down, to laugh at my failings and to be the first to enjoy the show named " I CAN'T DO IT".
I grew larger and larger, actually it became huge. It was like a shadow which followed me everywhere I went. An impossible mission that's what it was to get rid of it.
My biggest dream was to study at Cambridge, one of the best universities in the whole planet. I thought that nothing could stop me from making my dream come true. Are you curious how it continues? Keep reading.
I started to be realistic. After I saw the fees of the uni, the living cost and the budget I needed to afford a normal living there well I was shocked. I am not rich. God damn I don't have millions to spend. And I don't want my parents to borrow money in order to afford my school. No way. I am a grown up woman now and I am ale to understand how hard is to find the path and to build the statue of success beside it. Our parents are our everything. They are our biggest support, our protective angels. our lucky charms, our inspiration and above all our motivation. When we achieve something we dedicate everything to them. It is not their duty to always  sacrifice for us. I do agree that we need financial support but it's us who is developed and matured to face new challenges not them. When tomorrow comes you will be on your own out there, with no mummy and no daddy. Just you, yourself and you. This is pure definition of an endless fear.

It was the main sentence in my head but I overcame it. How I did that? Well nothing special. I know that fear will forever be my close friend so I dealt with it. Put it this way; My life has just begun and I will live it so I won't have any regrets in the near future. My best buddy FEAR you have to face it too. My failings and my success they are mixed together and so are you with me,

Plus you owe something to that endless fear, your achievements so far.I guess you understood that nothings is as bad as it looks like, it's just a matter of an individual perception.

Sending you a huge motivating hug.
Thanks for reading
Sincerely
JK